An Open Letter To My Anxiety

Hi,

Well where do I start? You have been in life since I have entered this crazy world. You’ve been through every single little detail of my life. The scary thing is I didn’t even know you were in my life till just a few years ago. When I found out that it was you who has been giving me these sick feelings, everything in my life slowly started to make sense. It has been you all along. You are the missing piece for all of these unsolved puzzles in my head.

When we actually got to meet for the first time, I made it very clear to you that I do not want you in my life, period. Yet, you still manage to stay. Selfish much? Why can’t you just leave my life and never come back? Why do you enjoy ruining my life? Don’t you realized that your actions have made bruises that are taking forever to fade away? Will you ever stop? Will you ever go away? I have so many questions, yet I know I will get no answers.

You have always worked in very mysterious ways. I wake up and the first thing on my mind ask is “What’s on your agenda to screw up my life today?” I never know when your coming. I could be having an amazing time with my friends and BAM! You decide to show up and screw it all up. Or somebody will say or do something and you jump in and make me feel like I wanna crawl under a rock and never come out. You even screw everything up when it comes to a cute boy I like. Because of you I have trust issues. We are somehow a package deal when it comes to boys. I feel bad for every boy I have dated because they also have to deal with you too. Have you ever heard of the saying “three is a crowd”?  You’ll even keep me up at night. That’s the worse. You have kept me up for hours with all the tossing and turnings and constant panicking.

Therefore, I have come to the conclusion to finally stick up for myself to you. You will get out my life. You don’t deserve to be in anybody’s life. You have not only controlled and ruined my life, but you have controlled and ruined so many other people’s lives too. This has to end now. I know it’s gonna take awhile for you to leave my life for good, but I am willing to do whatever it takes to get you out of my life and there is nothing you can do to stop me.

Sincerely,

A free girl.

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