Wow. You were a year filled with mixed emotions. I laughed a lot, cried a lot, smiled a lot and pouted a lot. It was a very eventful year to say the least. You made me want to rip my hair out and and lock myself in my room and never come out.
I started off my year happy and in love. I felt like on top of the world and everything was going just th way I wanted to.
When Janurary hit I was ready to skip straight to May and be done with junior year.
In Feburary you blessed me by allowing me to go out of my comfort zone. I never would do something as crazy as that.
March went by as there was the year anniversary of my great grandmothers death as well as spring break with my best friends.
April went by as you again pushed me out of my comfort zone. Again, crazy right?
May came finally after it felt like it would never come. There was prom and I felt like a princess dancing with my Prince Charming. Also came graduation and it was filled with tears as I knew I had to say goodbye to some close dear friends of mine.
June and July came by as they were months filled with anxiety and heart break. My mind was all over the place and I was as confused as ever. I said goodbye to and few friends towards the end of summer break which put me in more of deeper sorrow. The best part about summer would me introducing my best friend to Christ.
August came and my whole senior year changed completely. I was finally at happy knowing that I was starting to become free of my anxiety. I got a job at my church’s pre school as well as became a Sunday school teacher. What a true blessing. I also said goodbye to more friends as they went off to college. More sadness and more change as I do not handle that well at all.
September came and I turned 18. I felt more confident in my self. There were also more scary changes but that’s what’s life is about right?
October came and it was magical at the first part. When the magic ended it became very anxious and scary. A lot of tears were shedded but I got through it with my best friends and family as well as my Almighty God by my side.
November came and distance was created. I was very confused and never understood why but everything happens for a reason right? Oh yeah I forgot, I also learned I wasn’t a crazy person because of my anxiety. It’s nice to know what I go through is normal.
December was a good ole jolly month. One of my pre schoolers I help with passed away which literally tore my heart into a million pieces. He’s now my sweet little angel boy and I am thankful for him everyday. I ended the year with amazing friends and family and I am so blessed to have them.
Therefore, I am glad you are gone, but I am also glad you were here. You have taught me a lot 2015, and I thank you so much. No I would never wanna relive this year. Yes I would want to change a lot of things. But at the end of the day I realized that I have learned so many life lessons. Thank you 2015.
A blessed girl.