We were not in the best part of our relationship at the time. We fought like any other relationship, but it got to the point where I was tired of it. I was about to end up but you beat me to it. Your reasoning was very shocking to me. It was a reasoning I never did expect.
You broke up with me cause you said and I quote “I cannot handle your anxiety.”
When you said those words, it literally felt like somebody actually ripped my heart out. My throat got tight. My stomach was turning. I was hoping that maybe I heard it wrong. I unfortunately did not hear it wrong at all.
For months I have dreaded over you. At first I did not care at all about our break up. I did not even cry which was the best part. Later I eventually did and I did not know why until I remember why I did.
You broke up with me because you couldn’t handle my anxiety.
You taught me something very important. Sadly it took me a while to learn it, but I finally did. I learned that I need a guy who is willing to deal with me and my anxiety. I need a guy who does not let it define me unlike you did. I need a guy who is willing to help me through it. I need a guy who is willing to accept that I have it and it is a part of my life.
So thank you. Thank you for teaching me this. Because of you I do have trust issues when it comes to a boy and whether or not they can take my anxiety and I as a package deal or not. But I have learned that it is a good thing. It saves my heart from all the heartaches.
A girl who is more than her anxiety