Saturday night I had a night filled with so many tears. I laid in bed and bawled till I felt as I couldn’t cry anymore. I stayed up till 2 am asking God for help and guidance as I couldn’t help but just feel so alone in that moment. The next morning I woke up, I got ready for church and went straight to my classroom to teach. I was still in a not so good mood and honestly did not feel like being there.
As I was getting ready for my pre-schoolers to come in, a lady and her niece walked in saying that her niece was visiting today. I told her hello and that I was so excited for her to be here, with my fake, cheerful voice, hoping it wasn’t that noticeable. My kids started to come in and did their starting activity. All of a sudden, I felt a tiny little hand grab mine. I look down and found that sweet little girl grabbed my hand. As I looked down she looked up at me and had the sweetest smile across her face. I don’t know what it was but in that moment, and seeing that sweet little smile and holding her tiny hand, I felt a sense of happiness upon me. I felt safe, comforted, and love. All because a 4 yr old, grabbed my hand.
When class was over, I hated to see her leave. I didn’t want her to go. I wanted her to stay here with me and continue to hold my hand. I wanted to continue to play with her and laugh with her. That joy she gave me was such an amazing feeling.
When my students left, I instantly felt that sadness again. I cleaned up the room, turned off the lights, and shut the door, when all of a sudden I hear, “Miss Hannah!” I turn around and couldn’t help but see the sweetest siblings whom I adore so much. They ran up to me and gave the biggest hugs ever. That hug meant everything to me, hearing my name and watching a little 3 and 5 year old run up to me. That brought back the joy that I was longing to have.
After church, I left and reflected upon that sweet little girl that held on tightly and those sweet siblings as well. I don’t know what it was, but all I can tell you is that it was just something ’bout a child that instantly made everything better again. I thank the good Lord for children. They seem to make the world seem a little more brighter.